After Thanksgiving
It is now Decembet 13, I have gained all but two pounds back of the total I lost!! I am totally disgusted with myself. There are too many parties....I have no control. I only have a few dresses that fit me!! I call them my "fat clothes". I just dont know what the answer is. I dont want to live my life without chocolate and yet I cant seem to limit myself???????
I made my Christmas candies (like I always do) for my visiting teaching families... I made up four plates of goodies..Bob made banana bread for home teaching and we swapped out goodies....
however there were left over candies (if I was really smart I would have given THEM ALL AWAY) because little by little I just kept eating and eating the chocolate!!! I finally took the last four to my husband and said eat them or hide them!!!!
Friday, December 13, 2013
Thanksgiving in Texas
Thanksgiving in Texas
We drove half way today. We stopped in Biloxi and stayed at the Palace Casino....these places have cheap really nice rooms becasue they want you to come gamble. The deal was if we ate at the buffet which was fabulous we would each get $20 each to play on the machines. Bob played his $20 and made $13. I played ,my $20 and got $9. back ....So any way we had fun. We drove 8 hours the first day and 8 hours the second day.....yup 16 hours on the road.
Isabel has grown a foot taller!! sure was good to see her,,,So the next day we got back into the car and drove to Austin, Susan's dad and his wife Robin. We spent Thanksgiving with them 3 years ago also. I really enjoy spending time with them. It was pretty chilly there 28 degrees. I got up early the next morning and walked up the street and there were so many deer just romping around(on everyone's front lawn) that I could not even count them alll. It was almost like a petting zoo...one of them walked up to me like it wanted me to feed it....come to find out several people includimg Dennis and Robin do FEED them. There was one really big buck and there were several babies. Unbelievable!!
So the next day I get up early again and take my camera .......no even one deer!!!Change of venue without telling me....so no deer pictures. Its almost like I dreamed it.
Thanksgiving was just great. Not as many people as before ; I like it better. Both grandmothers were there and Robin's sister was there too. This year Hanukah began on Thanksgiving day so they had Isabel help light the candles on the minnora..she also got to open gifts and they said prayers.
We had a really nice visit but it was good to get back to Houston so we could visit with Rob and Susan and Isabel. Saturday the guys went gun shopping and the girls went to see "Frozen" which I totally enjoyed even if it was an animated story for kids!! The theatre there was gigantic...I think it had like 25 movie rooms..it had about ten restaurants ....it was craxzy.
We even had time to go to the park and fly a kite.
We left on Sunday because Jan had plans to leave on Tuesday and it was suppose to storm badly too.
Somehow Rob managed to find time to build me a new computer!! Thanks Rob. We drove 10 hours and stayed just over the Florida line so we got home about four o clock Monday. It was good to get home.
We drove half way today. We stopped in Biloxi and stayed at the Palace Casino....these places have cheap really nice rooms becasue they want you to come gamble. The deal was if we ate at the buffet which was fabulous we would each get $20 each to play on the machines. Bob played his $20 and made $13. I played ,my $20 and got $9. back ....So any way we had fun. We drove 8 hours the first day and 8 hours the second day.....yup 16 hours on the road.
Isabel has grown a foot taller!! sure was good to see her,,,So the next day we got back into the car and drove to Austin, Susan's dad and his wife Robin. We spent Thanksgiving with them 3 years ago also. I really enjoy spending time with them. It was pretty chilly there 28 degrees. I got up early the next morning and walked up the street and there were so many deer just romping around(on everyone's front lawn) that I could not even count them alll. It was almost like a petting zoo...one of them walked up to me like it wanted me to feed it....come to find out several people includimg Dennis and Robin do FEED them. There was one really big buck and there were several babies. Unbelievable!!
So the next day I get up early again and take my camera .......no even one deer!!!Change of venue without telling me....so no deer pictures. Its almost like I dreamed it.
Thanksgiving was just great. Not as many people as before ; I like it better. Both grandmothers were there and Robin's sister was there too. This year Hanukah began on Thanksgiving day so they had Isabel help light the candles on the minnora..she also got to open gifts and they said prayers.We had a really nice visit but it was good to get back to Houston so we could visit with Rob and Susan and Isabel. Saturday the guys went gun shopping and the girls went to see "Frozen" which I totally enjoyed even if it was an animated story for kids!! The theatre there was gigantic...I think it had like 25 movie rooms..it had about ten restaurants ....it was craxzy.
We even had time to go to the park and fly a kite.
We left on Sunday because Jan had plans to leave on Tuesday and it was suppose to storm badly too.
Somehow Rob managed to find time to build me a new computer!! Thanks Rob. We drove 10 hours and stayed just over the Florida line so we got home about four o clock Monday. It was good to get home.Monday, November 18, 2013
So for two weeks I cannot eat any starch or sugar! Thats a little difficult but I am doing it. We had company for dinner. They had given us some ground venison so I made a meatloaf. Bob bought some potatoes since we had guests. I baked potatoes for them....i had none!! They had ice cream for dessert....I had none!!!
Today we ate at Ruby Tuesdays. I had salad bar and 5 shrimp. No homemade biscuits! We met with friends an they suggested we got for pizza...we said no thanks. I reallly am trying.
I am going horse camping again this week...hope it gets easier than last week.
Today we ate at Ruby Tuesdays. I had salad bar and 5 shrimp. No homemade biscuits! We met with friends an they suggested we got for pizza...we said no thanks. I reallly am trying.
I am going horse camping again this week...hope it gets easier than last week.
Thursday, November 14, 2013
The monster wins
The Monster Wins
Yes, the monster has won; but only temporarily. I will find a diet that I can work. I just could not do the drops diet....tooo difficult. I have to stop the drops for two days and maintain the diet...so tomorrow is sthe last day. I didnt do very good today. We went out to eat at Oakwood BBQ. I ordered the beef even tho I ALWAYS get the pork and mostly get the baby back ribs. so I got the beef with a salad and some collard greens and for dinner I had more chicken soup....so we will see what the scales say tomorrow.
I am such a weak person. I hate being weak.
Yes, the monster has won; but only temporarily. I will find a diet that I can work. I just could not do the drops diet....tooo difficult. I have to stop the drops for two days and maintain the diet...so tomorrow is sthe last day. I didnt do very good today. We went out to eat at Oakwood BBQ. I ordered the beef even tho I ALWAYS get the pork and mostly get the baby back ribs. so I got the beef with a salad and some collard greens and for dinner I had more chicken soup....so we will see what the scales say tomorrow.
I am such a weak person. I hate being weak.
Wednesday, November 13, 2013
The Diet
The Diet
Well, I have been on the DIET for 10 days now!! I hate it. I suffered severely on the camping trip for nothing...I only lost one pound!!! in three days.
I am about ready to give up. Maybe I can do WW again???The only cheating i have done is some nuts! and a little bit of salad dressing.
I hate being overweight. I hate the fact that I have new clothes that I cannot wear! I need to start walking again!!!
Well, I have been on the DIET for 10 days now!! I hate it. I suffered severely on the camping trip for nothing...I only lost one pound!!! in three days.
I am about ready to give up. Maybe I can do WW again???The only cheating i have done is some nuts! and a little bit of salad dressing.
I hate being overweight. I hate the fact that I have new clothes that I cannot wear! I need to start walking again!!!
Tuesday, October 29, 2013
The monster
The Monster
I have a monster that lives within me! I don't know if others do or not however I suspect that others do. This monster is always hungry!! No matter how much I feed him; he wants more! It is so frustrating. I don't know how to handle this situation. I think about begging my doctor for drugs to control "him/it" but I don't do it. I want sugar; lots of sugar. I cant go without it. It is truly a drug...a very strong drug; so addicting. I just got the candy box down from the top of the frig. There are chocolate candy bars. I salivate when I see them. I have a half of Almond Joy from last nite in there. I eat it and I feel really really good. It is so soothing. Then I see a new kind of chocolate bar. It boasts chocolate and peanut butter; which is my very favorite combination! I think, I will just eat half. So I eat half and put the other half on the counter to share with my husband. The chocolate and peanut butter are so yummy! I have to have the other half!! I have to have the other half So I eat the other half. Now I have to hide the wrapper...I stuff it into the yogurt container that I made myself eat for lunch because I know I need to eat "something healthy". I push the yogurt container way down deep in the trash container.
About a half hour later: my stomach feels yucky!! Sometimes this happens when I am on a sweet binge.......its been quite a long time...In March, April, May and part of June, Bob and I did Weight watchers. I was feeling good. I was keeping the chocolate monster under control. Sometimes I can do that but not real often. I love the feeling when I am in control. I feel so powerful!!
Last night we had guests for dinner. I made homemade bread, yummy. I bought frosted Halloween cookies and we served chocolate fudgy ice cream...wow You would think the monster would be happy BUT oh no he was not. I was very smart and gave the cookies to the guests to take home...ha ha monster Later while watching TV we just had to finish of the candy that a friend gave Bob. Well, at least it is gone!
Yesterday was not a good day either...I had bought cookies but those are gone now. Hooray. Had a half of Almond Joy But only one half!! I also snacked on puffed rice snacks which I buy because they don't have a lot of calories!! oh, and I also got into the nuts....
And Saturday nite we went to a card party and I just pigged out on brownies!!
It all started when we took our 5th wheel camper on the road for two weeks then stopped in NY for Bob's family reunion and then drove to Maine to see my family..When we got back home we left a week later for North Carolina to visit our friends the Adlers for the month of September...so what is really was, was one BIG LONG VACATION which means not eating right. Well our meals were pretty good there were just lots of treats...like lots of ice cream and pistachio muffins from Ingles!!. Three months of treats just gonna put you on the roller coaster...I gained back all the weight I lost on WW.
The thing I hate about the monster is my stomach bloats up and looks horrible and my clothes don't fit me!!
I have two new dresses I bought when I lost weight on Weight Watchers. I wore one of them once and the tags are still on the other one AND I CANT GET INTO EITHER ONE NOW..I am so disgusted with myself....I want to wear my new dresses! I am at the very top of my heavy weight!! I need some motivation..I need some help. I am tempted to do the EVIL DROPS UNDER THE TONGUE DIET that I said I would never do again. I hate it BUT it stops the monster..it puts me in control...I am all powerful.
Nov 4
I started the diet drops yesterday! I lost 3lbs!! I have got to get the monster under my control and this is the only way I know to do it when its this powerful.....I can only consume 500 calories perday and only eat the foods on the list AND I have to weigh everything..It is very difficult BUT I know I can do it. I will get off the sugar!!! I will not be controlled by a drug.
Yesterday I had to make apple cobbler for our church meeting! They had salad but dressing was on it; they had potato soup and I love potato soup. I had one spoonful of the tomato soup and I had a few grapes and that wall ALL. but darn it they had so many desserts that I ended up taking mine home. So I picked up a few apples ; then Bob reminded me the sugar from the topping probably melted into the apples!! I think I will freeze some and maybe take the rest to Stacie!
One little glitch is: I am going camping with my horse for four days. This will definitely be a challenge...but somehow I will manage. In the past, camping has been a time for treats!!
I have a monster that lives within me! I don't know if others do or not however I suspect that others do. This monster is always hungry!! No matter how much I feed him; he wants more! It is so frustrating. I don't know how to handle this situation. I think about begging my doctor for drugs to control "him/it" but I don't do it. I want sugar; lots of sugar. I cant go without it. It is truly a drug...a very strong drug; so addicting. I just got the candy box down from the top of the frig. There are chocolate candy bars. I salivate when I see them. I have a half of Almond Joy from last nite in there. I eat it and I feel really really good. It is so soothing. Then I see a new kind of chocolate bar. It boasts chocolate and peanut butter; which is my very favorite combination! I think, I will just eat half. So I eat half and put the other half on the counter to share with my husband. The chocolate and peanut butter are so yummy! I have to have the other half!! I have to have the other half So I eat the other half. Now I have to hide the wrapper...I stuff it into the yogurt container that I made myself eat for lunch because I know I need to eat "something healthy". I push the yogurt container way down deep in the trash container.
About a half hour later: my stomach feels yucky!! Sometimes this happens when I am on a sweet binge.......its been quite a long time...In March, April, May and part of June, Bob and I did Weight watchers. I was feeling good. I was keeping the chocolate monster under control. Sometimes I can do that but not real often. I love the feeling when I am in control. I feel so powerful!!
Last night we had guests for dinner. I made homemade bread, yummy. I bought frosted Halloween cookies and we served chocolate fudgy ice cream...wow You would think the monster would be happy BUT oh no he was not. I was very smart and gave the cookies to the guests to take home...ha ha monster Later while watching TV we just had to finish of the candy that a friend gave Bob. Well, at least it is gone!
Yesterday was not a good day either...I had bought cookies but those are gone now. Hooray. Had a half of Almond Joy But only one half!! I also snacked on puffed rice snacks which I buy because they don't have a lot of calories!! oh, and I also got into the nuts....
And Saturday nite we went to a card party and I just pigged out on brownies!!
It all started when we took our 5th wheel camper on the road for two weeks then stopped in NY for Bob's family reunion and then drove to Maine to see my family..When we got back home we left a week later for North Carolina to visit our friends the Adlers for the month of September...so what is really was, was one BIG LONG VACATION which means not eating right. Well our meals were pretty good there were just lots of treats...like lots of ice cream and pistachio muffins from Ingles!!. Three months of treats just gonna put you on the roller coaster...I gained back all the weight I lost on WW.
The thing I hate about the monster is my stomach bloats up and looks horrible and my clothes don't fit me!!
I have two new dresses I bought when I lost weight on Weight Watchers. I wore one of them once and the tags are still on the other one AND I CANT GET INTO EITHER ONE NOW..I am so disgusted with myself....I want to wear my new dresses! I am at the very top of my heavy weight!! I need some motivation..I need some help. I am tempted to do the EVIL DROPS UNDER THE TONGUE DIET that I said I would never do again. I hate it BUT it stops the monster..it puts me in control...I am all powerful.
Nov 4
I started the diet drops yesterday! I lost 3lbs!! I have got to get the monster under my control and this is the only way I know to do it when its this powerful.....I can only consume 500 calories perday and only eat the foods on the list AND I have to weigh everything..It is very difficult BUT I know I can do it. I will get off the sugar!!! I will not be controlled by a drug.
Yesterday I had to make apple cobbler for our church meeting! They had salad but dressing was on it; they had potato soup and I love potato soup. I had one spoonful of the tomato soup and I had a few grapes and that wall ALL. but darn it they had so many desserts that I ended up taking mine home. So I picked up a few apples ; then Bob reminded me the sugar from the topping probably melted into the apples!! I think I will freeze some and maybe take the rest to Stacie!
One little glitch is: I am going camping with my horse for four days. This will definitely be a challenge...but somehow I will manage. In the past, camping has been a time for treats!!
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